
These people really earned their success and Im deserving of nothing, but I can earn something If I choose to. Though I think I've dropped a little of my childish jealously.

The emptiness in my soul has only widened. Everyone was there an exceptional individual with the skills to really do something in the world, and a lot of them had really nice bodies. The only that I know for certain is how worthless I feel for not doing anything yet.

It seems like what you choose to study is a big part of you and determines not only the type of person to become but also the people in your life. I just attended a master's graduation ceremony and no I'm even more lost.
